Wednesday, December 8, 2010

when the star starting to shine...

well, it is a new episode myb...when the star starting to shine...im in love?oh god..not to soon..huhu whateva it is i am really..really...really...really...happy...cant tell u how happy i am but its like looking out the window in the morning with a beautiful sun rising in front of me..n the fresh feeling that i hve is clearly seen n calm..dnt wory cyg..i will always love u forever n ever..hope dis relationship will last forever...he is the man, he is the one...u'll b my spirit, my soul..eventhough we only hve it in my dream n ur dream...we'll hold it together..love ya forever..

Saturday, November 6, 2010

what a day...

eventhough xam makin dekat but today xrasa nk study sblknya nk menulis n meluah apa yg ade dlm hati...
it started when i made up my  mind to see her 2day(bcause of rindu mayb..n long tme no see each other) so i kuatkn semangat n bharap everything gonna b fine when i meet her..well, at the 1st it going smooth n easy but then i mula rasa janggal n jelek when it come to her hubby yg terlebih peramah....hello...i need to speak with her la not u...then i realise he is now controlling the situation between us..oh my god, what am i doing here listening to his annoying story..shit..'macam sial'..huhuhu his ayat..arghh i hope he's got work to do..n leave us alone..
after a while he stop n try to figure out to do smething else..ohhh akhirnya...
then i hve a quality time with her..but it is not like what i imagine..totally different n i can feel the ackward..
n by that time i realize that i'm miss the old time that we had together..i cant tell it how but it make me feel calm, comfrtable n happy..why i cant hve that feeling anymore?why...bcause of our maturity?emm no,bcause of our gap?i dnt thnk so...then y??? i hve no idea..
thinking of that, i mula mrasakan tndkn yg i buat ni sia-sia n it come to the word 'menyesal'..owhh great..what a great idea to see her n to mnyesal bcause im seeing her...hohohoho what a stupid...

well, it reflect to my condition right now bcoz i cnt stop thnking bout her..owh, forgot that im having her facebook after finding n searching for an hour..apa yg memusykilkn lg is her date of birthday?is that true?what a fuck 1960s..hohoho n what a damn 1 of april? hello..all this tme that i know she is celebrating her bday on 22 of nov n i never miss to wish her every year since i know her..owh what a shame if it is true..
whatever it is, totally n seriously i feel like i wanna kill that guy that mke me jealous of their happnss..
owh no need to show off that u r a good person, a slumber rock n 'humble'..owh feel like i wanna throw this throught off..

its all done already so im just thankfull that i still can meet her,still can hve chat tgether frm heart to heart n still can keep in touch eventhough she is not telling me the truth n the story behind the scene..its ok, im not an important person to know all the story by the way.....who am i cmpare to her..i realise that..its ok...
thanx for the layanan n sorry for disturbing n taking ur tme..
one day, one day i hope i can find the answer n the feeling that im losing it rite now..hope so..
im alwyz pray for her savety n hppness..hope u'll never broke the relationship..im counting on it..plsss..


Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Mimpi yg terindah....

Alhamdulillah...Alhamdulillah...Subhanallah...
 Terharu dan seronoknya arini...rasa xnk bgn dari tdo....krn mengalami mimpi yg sgt indah...
mcm tau2 je di saat aku memerlukn, dia pasti dtg....
saat2 aku kesedihan, kepiluan mst rindu n teringatkn dia...
tiba2 smalam dpt jmpa, salam n pluk dia....dia tnya ape kaba, smpat slm dgn mak n adik beradik yg lain..
Ya Allah, tuhan saja yg tau betapa gmbra n seronoknya ati ni...aku xkn lupakn tgn yg sntiasa kusmbut bila dihulur, tgn yg sntiasa mmberi inspirasi n sumber kekuatan dlm meneruskn khdupan ni...
bila imbau blk saat2 bsama, rsa mcm sekejap je dia dh pegi tggalkn aku...tp aku tetap rsa dia sntiasa ada bila aku memerlukan....dia xkn ada penggantinya dari dlu skang n slamanya...dia tetap di hati..
smoga dgn bjmpa dia, aku akn diberi kekuatan dlm menempuhi dugaan n ranjau kehdupan...
u've to b strong...yeah...

bunga dibalas taik....

Arggghhh...sometimes life is cruel...dissapointed and frustated...
Well, people said buat baik berpada2, buat jahat jgn sekali...so, im trying to b a good person to evryone even it really hurts  myself...
Penat menjaga hati org, tp hati sndr ni sape nk jaga...penat wat baik kat org, bkn nk harapkn balasan tp cukup dgn pghargaan n ingatan....
inilah lumrah manusia...mudah sgt lupa daratan, lupa ingatan....but im always remind myself...Allah always with people who are in patient..mengahrapkn ganjaran pahala n nikmat dpd DIA...itu lebih menguntungkn...
tp hati manusia...xdpt lari dari bfkrn negatif...

"sy bkn nk puji dr atau meninggi dr tp sy xblh tgk org dlm kesushn, xblh tgk kwn2 dlm susah, kalau blh semua org sy nk gembirakan dan senangkn hati dorg, sy slalu nk tlg dorg setakat yg sy mampu, sy xpernah kecewakn dorg..org kata sy slalu ada bila dorg memerlukn sy, sy seronok sbb dpt bntu n buat org snyum...
sy xharapkn apa2 blsn cukup dgn ucapan terima kasih n senyuman pd wajah dorg...n dgn harapan bila smpai ms sy, dorg akn bntu sy pula....tp stiap kali sy perlukn dorg, dorg skit pn xpndang sy..dorg sslalu cari alasan kdg2 dorg sggup tpu sy sbb bg dorg sy blh bntu dr sy sndr..sy pn manusia biasa, bknnya malaikat blh wat sesuka ati sy, ade masa sy pn lemah sprt dorg, perlukn sokongan dr dorg tp........sy slalu rsa sorg2, skit pn dorg xendahkn sy...mgkn dorg xsuka tgk sy senyum...xpe la, sy kuatkn smgat sy sbb sy tau Allah sntiasa bsama2 sy...tp sy btul2 kcl hati, sy btul2 terasa ati n sy btul2 kecewa... bg dorg sy ni seolah2 tmpt utk dipergunakn bila dorg rsa perlu..........mungkin salah sy juga trlalu baik pd dorg, tp ape sy nk wat...sy tau pglmn byk mnjadikn sy matang tp bila bhadapan dgn situasi mcm ni, sy tewas....sy xtau ape yg perlu sy buat selain menangis n pendam dlm ati....sdgkn dorg seronok bgembira n bketawa...sampai ati dorg....."

Mungkin itulah harga yg perlu kutanggung apabila berbuat baik..
im trying ok, im trying my best...walaupun kdang2 terasa diri ibarat lilin yg membakar diri demi memberi cahaya kpd yg lain...
owh its hurt.......a lot ok.....
selalu org sebut 'arini ari sya, mna tau sok2 lusa ari awk lak'
arghh...it doesnt mean anything, xpernah ada istilah hari saya....
pedih n luluh hati ini...susah sgt ke nk kenang walau sdkt pgrbnn n pertlgn yg dh kta bg...
slalu mengalir airmata ni mengenangkn prstiwa ni....sedih sgt....

Monday, August 9, 2010

From Adians to Z'ans....

Once upon a time there is a girl that love to b love by a boy dat has a novel name alike..
Well, it is sweet to have a beautiful name with its beautiful meaning...
klimaks- there u go with a loving moment n romantic scene..but it happen only 3years then it is gone bcause of ketidakjujuran n ketdksefahaman~ well i dont know how to mention it, but it makes da girl really2 upset n down for awhile..
Only god noe how painfull it was n how strong she had to fight n face it. Whateva it is,
its a reality of  life, people come n go, u meet n u say goodbye..its a normal behaviour hahahaha for most of them off course.
then for a decent of time, she had nothing left....only pray for herself to b a better person..
To make it short,
it begins with all the Z'ans..
n im sorry i dnt know how it ends..
maybe in her mind rite now there is a lot of Z'ans..
whateva it is, she dnt hve to do anything..
just smile n pray for the best...

with nu title n nu spirit..

hahaha its been a long long long journey n nu world to b discover...
being with da nu title didnt change myself even its hard to dscover when u r alone in the world...
people said maturity will b gain when u xplore the learning, observation n experience process.. yup, true...and with da min of stress, ull achieve whateva u want in life..

Trying to gve motivation to myself even it is harder than u might think..
trying to update n upgrade myself to da high level..

Monday, February 15, 2010

having a great vacation...

1st of all, to all my dearest tiong hwa frens out there, gong xi fa cai...slmat thn balu cina...
n im having my great vacation..hehehe try to have some calmness session by mandi air terjun di sungai congkak with some of my xskol fren...
date: 13th of february 2010
venue: sg congkak, ulu langat
time:10am-6pm
activies: bbq,eating,bathing,games,chatting....

actually ive been here for more than 2x..hahaha 
its a very beautiful place to release ur tension...
come, im inviting u guys out there to spent ur time @sg congkak....
 
 

Sunday, February 14, 2010

rindu pd dia...

xngerti...kenapa ko tinggalknku....puas aku mncari...ko je satu2nya yg rapat dgnku, yg mmbesar dgnku....puas dh bermcm2 usaha aku buat...kenapala aku msh xdpt jmpa ko...
aduyaiii...smpai aku tpaksa cari pengganti...tp trus terang aku ckp, xsama cam ko....
waaa...aku rindukan ko....tlg, tlg.tlg kembali padaku....mna lagi aku nk korek n search  ko..
ko xkesian ke pdku....susahnya aku nk mengadaptasi dgn yg baru...ko dh kuhias cantik2,
dh sebati ngan jiwaku, dh serasi ngan naluriku...mna ko ni????? smpai ati ko tinggalkn aku...
penah dah aku menangis mncari ko....sgala2 ada pd ko...ko dh ibarat kad pengenalan aku,
hilang dh identiti aku....hilang dh kenangan aku...waaaa....cmna lg aku nk cari ko ni...
kenapa, kenapa, kenapa aku xjmpa ko...aku rindu sgt2 kat ko....
mna ko pegi diari blogku...mna ko pergi?????tlg.....
mna lg aku nk search blog lma aku.....knapa aku xblh bdampingan dgn ko lg...
aku dh xblh log in....apa salah aku?kenapa?ape dosa aku pd ko....
kembalila pd aku, dh berkali-kali aku cuba bukak ko, nape xblh jugak???
huuuu....abisla sume kenangan indah, sajak, puisi,puitis aku yg ada pd ko...
kalau lepas ni aku ilang ingatan, ko la satu2nya yg blh kembalikn ingatan aku
wahai diari blogku............kembalilah ko pdku...
dh byk kali aku cuba log in ko ni, napela xblh.....huhuhuhu




Saturday, February 6, 2010

tenda biru...

Tak sengaja lewat depan rumahmu
Ku melihat ada tenda biru
Dihiasi indahnya janur kuning
Hati bertanya pernikahan siapa

Tak percaya tapi ini terjadi
Kau bersanding duduk di pelaminan
Airmata jatuh tak tertahankan
Kau khianati cinta suci ini

Tanpa undangan , Diriku kau lupakan
Tanpa utusan . . . Diriku kau tinggalkan
Tanpa bicara . . . Kau buat ku kecewa
Tanpa berdosa . . . Kau buatku merana
Ku tak percaya . . . Dirimu tega
Nodai cinta . . . Khianati cinta


dnt know y but this song becoming my theme song for dis month or myb for another 4months...rite now dnt know how to express my feeling...sume bcampur aduk...i think for most girls out there will feel very2 disapointed, frustated,extremely sad. like want to cry golek2 but for me..its like nothing to cry over..well, everyone pernah putus cinta n everyone has their own xperience through all dis..tp apa yg mmberi kekuatan pdku hanyalah kata-kata "kita akan tetap sayangkan seseorang  tu sampai bila-bila w/pun dia akan lupakan kita krn kita akn perolehi kebaikan di atas ksh syg itu"...well, that the azimat yg ku pegang sehingga ke hari ini. dan ditambah pula dgn cerita garuda frm my housemate n kisah c-la dgn kekasihnya yg turut give me strength for all dis...however, i still cant face the truth n im trying to accept and adopt the reality into my life..

Well its like being stab by someone....mula-mula mndapat khabar duka cita ini, aku xmampu bkata2, 'adi nk kawen bln 6 ni...buat serentak dgn adik dia-hajar'....suddenly terkesima, tpaku,terkelu skjap..dunia jadi gelap,no words..speechless...hanya mengimbau segala kenangan bsama n all those sms dat ive got from him..thinking dat how dare he's doing dis to me...rsa mcm dipermainkan dgn perkataan2 syg and so on..hahaha damn im blind b4..well, bila difikir2kan apelah sgt our memories yg blh remain until now wlpun 3thn we spent our time, so ive decided to take it easy n blagak mcm nothing happen..suddenly i realise ianya agak sukar..n myb it takes time to put all the memories away...inilah risk yg ive to take bila mnjadi pencinta n mencinta...so, for u Ihmal Hadi b Ibrahim, its over....n inilah hakikat yg i perlu accept...he's gonna b someone's husband n he's gonna left...for him yg pernah hadir n singgah dlm hati ni...terima kasih byk2 krn tlh mnjadikn diriku more mature 2day than b4 n tq for make my life wonderful in da past 3years..smoga berbahagia bsama si dia......

so once again ive to accept that im single again...waiting to love n to b love by true love....smoga diri ini diberi kekuatan n keteguhan utk melalui sgala ujian dan dugaan ini...i know myself..i am stronger....i can handle it...n again...im single!!!!!!

this is what i should do to u..
 

Saturday, January 23, 2010

MARUAH BEREGU EMAS BADMINTON TERCALAR

Berita Sukan dipetik dari sumber:Hidayat blogspot

KUALA LUMPUR, Khamis malam Jumaat- Meskipun pasangan beregu emas badminton Kg. Pasir, M.Arip-N.Dayat tak dapat beraksi setelah Arip menarik diri di saat akhir. Namun maruah mereka tetap sedikit tercemar.

Dayat yang digandingkan dengan pemain muda iaitu Raihan T bagi menggantikan Arip telah tumpas kepada pasangan beregu veteran kampung seberang, Nizam P.-K. Mad.

Walaupun baru digandingkan N.Dayat-Raihan T tetap mempamerkan aksi yang membanggakan warga Kg. Pasir. Pada awalnya kombinasi mereka menampakkan kegoyahan dan mereka ketinggalan 9-0.
Nizamkumad
Namun begitu, diatas semangat kesukanan yang kental mereka mula bangkit mempersembahkan corak permainan mantap dan berjaya mengikat kedudukan mata 10 sama.

Seterusnya, para penonton menyaksikan permainan yang sengit antara dua bergu. Servis bertukar tangan dan terus bertukar. Masing-masing tidak mahu menyerah.

Walaubagaimanapun pengalaman menjadi titik perbezaan. Akhirnya kemenangan berpihak kepada beregu veteran Nizam P. dan K. Mad dengan 15-13.

N.Dayat memberi alasan masalah raket. Difahamkan raket hitam kegemarannya telah dihilangkan oleh adiknya. Manakala pemain muda Raihan T. pula difahamkan baru sahaja hendak membaca yassin tetapi terpaksa membatalkan hasratnya setelah mendapat panggilan secara tiba-tiba dan menyatakan tiada persiapan rapi serta awal merupakan punca kekalahan.

Namun tiada alasan yang dapat diberikan lagi setelah mereka terus tumpas dan tunduk kepada beregu tak ternama, Syeh-Nizam.

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(sumber: Agensi Berita Bernama-Sengal)

11 DITANGKAP DISYAKI ‘CLUBBING’


KUALA LUMPUR, Khamis lagi- Jam menunjukkan pukul 9.30 malam dan skuad Edisi Langsat berjaya mengekori sekumpulan belia yang mana dari maklumat awal disyaki menuju ke kelab malam. Walaupun tindakan mereka yang menaiki empat kereta berasingan bagi memperdaya krew Edisi Langsat tetapi kami awal-awal lagi telah dapat menghidu helah tersebut.

Apa yang cukup mengecewakan suspek-suspek tersebut terdiri dari graduan-graduan dan mahasiswa-mahasiswa. Apa nak jadi dengan golongan belia sekarang ini? Bagaimanalah gamaknya masa hadapan negara?

Namun setelah di siasat 11 suspek tersebut bukanlah ke kelab kabaret atau kelab dangdut seperti yang disangkakan. Tetapi ke kelab badminton. Tempat kejadian adalah di Kuala Lumpur Racket Club atau lebih dikenali sebagai KLRC Wangsa Maju.

Clubbing_badminton_1

Dan aksi-aksi mereka telah ditangkap dengan kamera sebagai bukti kes ditutup.

Sekian, Edisi Langsat melaporkan, "11 Ditangkap
Disyaki Clubbing".




ref: Achieve from Hidayat blogspot


E-JUMP KEMBALI BERSIH

Berita Utama achieve from Hidayat blogspot

SETAPAK, Khamis- E-jump,21 telah kembali bersih setelah disenarai hitamkan oleh pihak JPJ akibat saman-saman yang tertunggak.

Salah satu dari dua saman tersebut adalah kesalahan serius iaitu melanggar lampu isyarat yang mana kompaunnya mandatori RM150 (menurut pegawai trafik yang ditemu kini meningkat RM300).

Penyenaraian hitam tersebut telah mencemarkan reputasi dan imej selebriti muda daerah Keramat itu. Saman_1

Namun setelah menjelaskan dua saman yang berbaki pada pagi ini, Mohd Nizam bin Puteh atau nama glamornya E-jump telah kembali putih bersih dan beliau dapat menghidupkan semula ‘road tax’nya yang telah 2 hari meninggal.

Beliau telah insaf dan kini berazam untuk menjadi pengguna jalan raya berhemah serta menjadi contoh kepada golongan belia. Beliau juga berharap kisahnya akan menjadi teladan kepada anak muda.

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Ikuti laporan dari skuad Edisi Langsat.

PTPTN


Riba: PTPTN rujuk jawatankuasa fatwa

Oleh WAN RAMLI WAN MUHAMAD (Utusan Malaysia)

KUALA TERENGGANU 25 Dis. – Perbadanan Tabung Pendidikan Tinggi
Nasional (PTPTN) akan merujuk kepada Jawatankuasa Fatwa Kebangsaan bagi
memastikan caj perkhidmatan tiga peratus yang dikenakan terhadap
peminjam tidak bertentangan dengan hukum syarak (lanjut)

Caj PTPTN - Ustaz Zaharuddin

Ahlong_bukit_beruntung

(Gambar hiasan)


Memetik rujukan dari En Hidayat dari blog di friendsternya, ku teruja dgn topik yg satu ni...

Masakan tidak, setiap pelajar..(oppss skrg mereka kepingin digelar Mahasiswa/si) di mana2 institusi pengajian tinggi tdak akn lari dari topik yg dibincangkan..dengan begitu mudahnya mereka terjerumus ke kancah PTPTN hanya kerana wang ringgit yg dilaburkan menjadi taruhan...siapa yg tdak mahukan kemewahan apatah lagi semasa bgelar mahasiswala masanya untuk bersuka ria dgn berpoya-poya dgn apa yg ada....

mulanya niat di hati nak gunakan sewajarnya..beli buku,tanggung makan sara hidup, yuran pengajian, keperluan assignment dan keperluan2 hidup yg lain tapi bila dah dapat keperluan ditinggal, kemahuan dituruti..inilah manusia, terlalu mudah dihasuti Syaitan Laknatullah...terlupa sudah akan ia keperluan buku original yg mahal sebaliknya buku fotostat mnjadi idaman,ter lupa sudah ia pada tanggungan makan dan sara hidup sebaliknya hp dan aksesori motor yg didahulukan, terlupa sudah ia pada keperluan assignment sebaliknya karaoke,bowling dan wayang tiap2 ujung mggu mnjadi hobi...inilah nikmat hidup..syurga dunia bak kata pepatah, bersenang2 dahulu, bersusah2 kemudian...hahaha maka menangislah PTPTN kerana telah mmberi sejumlah wang dengan percumanya kpd pelajar yg ingin digelar mahasiswa/si.

panas tidak akn selamanya, awan mendung akan berarak menggantikan panas ketika itulah hujan beserta ribut,kilat dan taufannya akan melanda dan begitulah nikmat kemewahan yang hanya bertahan 3-4thn...slpas tamat pengajian, sengsara bakal mengundang...yg dahulunya tidak pernah berhutang walau sesen pun pd teman mahupun sedara-mara, kini berpuluh-puluh ribu hutang pada si PTPTIPU...maka ketika ini, ketawa berdahak-dahaklah si PTPTIPU ibarat gajah tertawakan si semut dengan mengangkat2kn keningnya...(gajah ada kening?)emmm xpela, pura2kn saja sprti ada...

Namun bersyukurlah kita pada hari ini kerana interest yg dahulunya begitu tinggi ( 3<> 1) kini sudah dikurangkan kpd 1%...

maka legalah sedikit wpun tidak byk...sekurg2nya beban yg ditanggung dapat diringankn...


Sunday, January 17, 2010

wonderful xperience...


took dis story frm my fren dat share her wonderful xperience with me..well, glad n hepi 4 her to hve a wonderful xperience...check it out..
15 jan 2010 is my best ever day in my life..2-3days before i had my insting dat today gonna b da best day ever...im starting wondering what will happen n how's dat day going on..alhamdulillah, ni lah detik dan saat yg ditunggu2 after bout 10years i left all da memories behind..but today, it remain but in a matured way...
started with a beautiful morning..wake up early to pack my brg2 frm my umah sewa..
then with my fren's car driving to ukm library,need to borrow some books...
about 9.50am, hve to msg her to remind bout our prog dis afternoon...
9.59am-Boleh..sound very great for me..
11.30am- back to my house to pack n get ready to btlk blk..
about 12.30pm-leaving the house..but xdpt blk trus ke umah bcause smbhyg jumaat was held @da mosque, a lot of car that i could not reach my house...so i hve to wait another 15min..
god, my stomache already singing it song..then im feeling a bit coozy..angin naik through my headache..need to do something...
2.30pm-having my lunch but not in a good manner coz my mind is not there, thinking how im going back frm dat plaza then..
3pm- thinking that im gonna hve some sleep here..hoho very da pening..pening-pening lalat kta org so im having a nap for 30min
3.30pm-in a rush utk bsiap, just using wateva yg ada dpn mata..
3.31pm-got a msg but xperasan bila dia msk...' jadi gi ke ? Kalau tak jadi tak apa kita gi lain kali'.
huh...mana blh xjadi, wateva it is, prog must go on..bile lg dpt chance mcm ni...
about 3.55pm-reach @ her house..hhahaa smpai lupa nk bslmn, punya la nk cpt..pick up dia
then it started very slowly..eventhough ingat2 lupa jln, but its goin' well..with the song dat we hear..emmm...
smpai2 di chow kit, we park our car @de nearest to da plaza...then bmulala episod jln2 kami...
she's vry excited...n we had a wnderful n lvely time together..miss those time together mcm dlu2...vry appriciate every single moment of dat day....
n surprise..got some present 4me..gelang yg so so beautiful...aknku smpan as my kenangan yg terindah...
time running so fast, we ddnt realise its already 6oclock..
hahahaha da most important n experience i ever hve...on da way back, tayar pancit...damn....time ni la wat hal...dahla @highway Akleh at dat time..gile keta sume laju2...how am i suppose to get sme help here...got to think so clearly..call all my frens already but cnnt reach 1 of them...n thank god nizam answer my call, need his help...just a few sec, alhmdulillah smebody cme n help us to change da tyre..owh tq vry much p.cik taxi...helping us a lot...
hahahaha whateva it is, im not in a panic situation...smehow i dnt know why..myb bcause of her always bside me..like we had a time ago..well, she gave me da kekuatan utk lalui apa sja...
and alhamdulillah, everything go smooth..teruskn pjlnn but very very the jammed...
about 8.09 we reach her house n i drop by to perform my solat 1st..n again im very thnkful we had a vry vry tough n wonderful xperience...
then we had our dinner-meggi...yeah..we talk n talk n talk like i dnt wanna leave her....oh god, wat a feeling...
then, leave her house about 9.38pm..she's very2 happy n thanks me for da day..then i leave with a long smile n hear some happy music inside my mind....

:)

nu world of life...


my new day,getting new with this new blog...hope to use it well...
before dis, usually im using my old diary to write,to luah,to cmplain n to critic wateva i want..but now, try to update myself with nu era n tech~~it off course and try to make it my rutin...yeah...
chaiyo2x..
pls do advise me...